Haha Well I haven't used mindsay since January 27th of this year... Haha whoops!! So I've actually been doin xanga 'cause all my church peeps are on there so I guess I'll be doing both now to keep in touch with you ppl from the old school part of my life. Haha I'm totally just joshin yah but yeah I'll be sure to keep up on this one too.  Went to Goodhue today to help Sarah set up her classroom... for all of you who don't know my sister got a job teaching 1-3 general music, middle school choir and high school choir. It was kind of a bore bahhh! I'm going to the Zoo on Thursday again I just went last Friday haha but what ever I like to take pictures of animals... Anyways I had an interview at aero on yesterday (yes I said on yesterday thats not a typo) it went ok not sure if I'm gonna take the job if they offer it to me but whatever.  I finally have hours at Chateau after not being schedualed for 3 weeks... wanna guess how many hours I have now? Pretty sure I'm only getting 6 hours this week.... I'm pretty sure I'm in the money. Haha Now my dad is listening to cheesey choir music haha. He directs the choir at my church. I'm not saying that church music is bad its just the old ppl cheesy music that makes me laugh. I start school next week isnt that thrilling! I'm goin for retail merch. excitingness in the brain. Haha.

   The end for today!!

Bah bah black sheep have you any wool??

So I desided I'm not gonna bother with guys anymore. I think I'm meant to be single. I can't keep even a simple conversation going with a guy and they all like the pretty girls anyways.  It seems that everytime I like a guy that all of a sudden they stop talking to me cause somehow they find out I have no idea how they do but they do. Or I think a guy likes me and I'm totally wrong. Why is it that every guy that ends up liking me is totally weird. I probably shouldnt say that cause every guy I like probably thinks that about me but whatever. I'm totally not even saying guys are everything cause I've had a totally awesome year just being around the girls its just sometimes its nice to have that guy there to talk to and get away from the girly poopy moods.  I dont know it seems like everytime I do end up trusting a guy they let me down or in someway I let them down and they avoid me. I know humans will always let you down but is it possible that they all let you down just when you begin to trust them? I dont understand it.  I don't get what I'm doing wrong  Do I have boogers hanging out of my nose or something? Am I really that hard to get a long with? I'm sick of hearing ppl say oh you're pretty ohh you're nice you're funny yet I still sit here alone. I especially hate it when guys say those things cause obviously its not true. Ok enough venting for tonight i need to watch elf to get happy again and fall asleep and dream of a place where what ppl say is true and where I can trust ppl not to turn their backs on me right when i begin to trust them.

So the past two days the weather has been soooo incredible that I got to drive my car with the windows down I was sooo excited I need sun to live. Praise God for summer!!! I cannot wait for it to come. So on Monday I got home from school and it was so amazingly gorgeous that I couldn't stay inside so I started shovelin the deck. I got sick of that so I buildt myself a snowman!! It was so much fun even though I'm pretty sure people who drove passed my house thought I was a freak since I'm in college and I was building a snowman all by myself but oh well. Its the little things in life that make it so great and I dont need to care about what people think of me cause I had fun and how many times can you build a snowman in a year? Well a lot in Minnesota but still how many times do you actually take up the chance and do it? All I can say is warm weather makes me happy. I even colored in a coloring book!! Haha well thats all from me right now I'm off to celebrate the great season of eating food and coloring!!

So tonight kinda sucked I got in a car accident and I feel like a total idiot and I can't believe I could be so stupid. My parents arent upset I'm more upset than they are. I'm just sick of being a disappointment and it hurts me alot cause I disappoint myself well anyway there are more important things in life I gtg to bed.

It's a Beautiful Morning! It's 12:48 and I'm still waking up isnt that grand?? Yester day was a great day I woke up at 12:00 and went to church at 1:00. While at church a played a very serious match of Ping-Pong with my bud Kelair (woo hoo). Then we went to shoot a video at the Bible College and found out that Jesus' last name is Smith (Will is the most intellegent person I know and very attractive in a totally God like way haha). We then went to Panera and had the most amazing food on the planet and ran into Will again!! We ate pickles and had a joyous time. We then went on to our next even and picked up Jamie from her home. We had never met Jamie we just had her mom call us and ask us to pick her up so we were like ok. We got lost and past her house like 5 times. We are extremely smart!! It was a great service last night and we then went to B dubs where I almost fell asleep so I left had an incounter with Mar Mar said so long and came to my humble abode. But I have to go now to get ready to go to church again for a wonderful afternoon of Dew Drops so tah tah for now!!